I am sure of one more fact though that its not always bad to hide behind the masks. Actually most of the times its wore not to make other persons feel bad.
As a teenager I always thought I am free...to express my feelings ..good or bad ..soft or blunt. I don't need a mask !!! But as my age progresses to thirties I feel its not always necessary to be proud being an open book.
There are some instances when you want to speak up for good, for others but you back out...saying to your inner self..hold it, its not necessary !!!
Taken for instance , my friend yesterday told me about how her 3 year old kid loves the scene from Gajani when the Villon kills the heroin...i was taken aback. Why to show such terrible violence to the kids? why take there innocence away? But I kept my views to myself. See its not about criticizing anybody but those are my views wishing best for the child but i simply didn't express it out of fear, she might take it in wrong way.......The Mask hold it right there . I came home with the same thought in my mind. Are we really taking the innocence away from kids or is it already gone ...thanks to 24 * 7 news channels covering the live terrorists attacks and how a policeman brutally hits a kid.
Another incident of my so called harmless masks would be again a chat with my another friend.
We were discussing about adoption. She n her husband have decided to adopt a child . A very noble thought I would say. Infact as a teenager I always wanted to adopt a child too. But i saw a case in my relatives where their adopted baby then happened to grow as a abnormal kid.n this horrified me like anything. Not like i am against the adoption or raising a special child but when we become a parent by nature or by adoption, we always want our baby to be normal healthy person. N when something like this happens , I just cant imagine how the life would take a turn. I am a believer of genes, that genes have greater hand in person's development. How can we be sure that the baby we are going to love the most, nurture in every right way going to be best?
I wanted to share my thoughts with her. But i didn't...the mask didn't. I didn't want her to feel discouraged or feel like i am giving any negative thoughts.
So the mask works.
Question is why its bothering me??? Why i want to be same old (i wont say same GOOD old) teenager n drop the every inch of the mask that's keeping me away from being true self?
Why should i live life thinking about what the others would feel?
Oh Mask....please hide these questions...can you???
the mask IS necessary.
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