A man with different chemical formula...

Finally saw a Anurag Kashyap Movie....recently released Gulaal....This man is born in different soil...very difficult to understand...still love him..love his work...n in a way hate it too.... do u get what i mean?? if u cant understand this sentence, u cant understand Anurag Kashyap too :)

I am still dying to see DevD.

Feels like he is not making a movie..but writing a blog or infact his own diary.

All the bizarre stuff that our mind creates / thinks of /imagines , projecting in 70 mm visual. How many can do so??

Sincerely i sometimes think why he makes a movie? How many actually understands what he actually wanna show? For whom he makes a movie? Does he always have all these bizarre complicated thoughts in his mind? Does anybody understand him in real life ?

Too many questions..just by watching one movie.

I would love to see him as a writer..to read his book. Somehow i feel he would be more expressive in those.

There are many people we come across n we think...they r born different...totally different soil.

Many are complicated n some very straight forward, for them life is a simple mathematical equation. We may not value the second category as much as  we are in awe with the first one ; but whats in born is to see life crystal clear with only two options ahead.."Y"/"N" ,Good /Bad , Go/Stop.

I wonder how many undiscovered chemical formulae are there ..that God has created in his lab.

Anurag kashyap.....God must be thinking too much while making yours...

mask....

Day by day i am being certain about an universal truth..we all have a mask. A mask to hide the true self , the true thoughts going in our mind , the true us.

I am sure of one more fact though that its not always bad to hide behind the masks. Actually most of the times its wore not to make other persons feel bad.

As a teenager I always thought I am free...to express my feelings ..good or bad ..soft or blunt. I don't need a mask !!! But as my age progresses to thirties I feel its not always necessary to be proud being an open book.

There are some instances when you want to speak up for good, for others but you back out...saying to your inner self..hold it, its not necessary !!!

Taken for instance , my friend yesterday told me about how her 3 year old kid loves the scene from Gajani when the Villon kills the heroin...i was taken aback. Why to show such terrible violence to the kids? why take there innocence away? But I kept my views to myself. See its not about criticizing anybody but those are my views wishing best for the child but i simply didn't express it out of fear, she might take it in wrong way.......The Mask hold it right there . I came home with the same thought in my mind. Are we really taking the innocence away from kids or is it already gone ...thanks to 24 * 7 news channels covering the live terrorists attacks and how a policeman brutally hits a kid. 

Another incident of my so called harmless masks would be again a chat with my another friend.

We were discussing about adoption. She n her husband have decided to adopt a child . A very noble thought I would say. Infact as a teenager I always wanted to adopt a child too. But i saw a case in my relatives where their adopted baby then happened to grow as a abnormal kid.n this horrified me like anything. Not like i am against the adoption or raising a special child but when we become a parent by nature or by adoption, we always want our baby to be normal healthy person. N when something like this happens , I just cant imagine how the life would take a turn. I am a believer of genes, that genes have greater hand in person's development. How can we be sure that the baby we are going to love the most, nurture in every right way going to be best?

I wanted to share my thoughts with her. But i didn't...the mask didn't. I didn't want her to feel discouraged or feel like i am giving any negative thoughts.

So the mask works.

Question is why its bothering me???  Why i want to be same old (i wont say same GOOD old) teenager n drop the every inch of the mask that's keeping me away from being true self?

Why should i live life thinking about what the others would feel? 

Oh Mask....please hide these questions...can you???

Kitkat Break Banta Hai....

People ask....so whats up...u must be busy all day.... n my usual reply would be yeah..."my baby keeps me on toes 24 * 7 "  but is that really so?? i ask myself ....come on mugdha whom r u kidding to??? u wake up late...watch as much tv as u want...do interent surfing...take afternoon naps ( these r so longer..cant even call them a nap ) ....go to chitchat with friends...where is the "busy" word fit in ???

I need a break...sincerly need a break... you may wonder BREAK??? isnt this life itself a big long break from all those heavy duty busy schedule of deadlines, client telecons , team management ? 

but yess..,,Kitkat break banta hai.....i need a break from this routine lazy life....

so started with new routine slowly slowly...

first thing getting up....atleast at 7:30 (see my definition of early !!! )

need to lose the belly pouch ( enough of baby excuse )...so starting with community gym.

n frankly speaking  loved it so much...never missed a single day even on wkend !! when i go down open the door ..the cool breez just makes my day....feels like what i used to feel during engeneering days while making a full night ...i m the owner of this world....only i m awaken kind of feeling...n just love it.

love the 30 min which r only dedicated to myself...plus i can see the cartoon network (which i dnt hv at home cable)

now the next thing..healthy brekfast.  Earlier as i used to get up with my baby there was no time for breakfast which made me really fussy !!

My in near future breaks would be "no afternoon nap" or atleast shorten it to 20 min. (i dnt like to be very strict u see )

Need to brush up my technical knowledge..that might be possible only at afternoon . Hmm...going grt , what else? need to start some sports activity...need to be more organised.

More visits to park , liabrary.

so before getting real break...thats starting the "moneyearning" job , i should get a break this way...what say??? kitkat break banta hai , hai na???